I wish, i can turn back time, then i would turn it back to secondary 1. When i joined NPCC. And then i would stop myself from doing all the stupid things. Most importantly, that one thing, that i did. That stupid thing.
9:25 AM
Monday, December 07, 2009
&& i think of u every night~
Scout and Infocomm camp yesterday. Was okay. Think the best thing was night walk, its scary to walk at the back, expecially if you lag behind, no one is beside you and you hear noises. Scary. Chek Jawa was dissapointing, we could not go down.
Did not really sleep. I tried to sleep in the tent. Cross-legged. Then kenneth accidentally woke me up and requested that we go brush teeth. I tried to get up, but i fell. My whole left leg was very weak and numb. I tried to get out of the tent, stood up, and fell again. Damn cross-legged sleeping. After a few minutes, i could stand up again. Hurray.
One group of dogs kept loitering near the teacher's chalet and came to our campsite the next day. Dog wars. They ganged a dalmation i think. then after a while, we fed them sausages. Then some time later, a big dog appeared and started attacking the group of dogs. One of the dogs attacked its own member and two of them fought each other. Stupid.
Demons everywhere. Betrayers. And thats why this song is here. A7X for life!
Passion in my eyes, I lived it everyday, but how could you go and throw it all away In my dreams it's me and you, it's there I saw it all come true As time went by faith in you grew, so one thing left for me to do
I feel it burn inside, burning me like the rising sun Lifted into the sky, took away the only thing I loved I know after tonight all your power crumbles in my arms So don't worry, I'll be fine, when my life ends, I'll leave this scar
When I fell down, I needed you there Every note and every word seems so hard to take Finally, In destiny
A smoking gun in hand, now don't you realize what you've done Put a bullet in his back, your hero since you were so young How could you kill the man who brought salvation through your pain He must mean everything to end it all this shameful way
Passion in my eyes, I lived it everyday, but how could you go and Throw it all away In my dreams it's me and you, it's there I saw it all come true As time went by faith in you grew, so one thing left for me to do
I started here so young and helped you get along Just did it for the love, and people healed through us Don't live your life in vain, don't take it out on me You're cracked, so just remember, I'm not your enemy I don't deserve to fall this way, by a man who felt betrayed
I felt so down now you're around to rescue me Every note and every word I'm listening Sometimes problems seem too deep to take(too hard to take) Sometimes I cry thinking my future looks so bleak
Finally, together we were destined, I know what's best for us in the end Someone hear me, someone stop me, someone listen, why aren't you listening
Passion in my eyes, I lived it everyday, but how could you go and Throw it all away In my dreams it's me and you, it's there I saw it all come true As time went by faith in you grew, so one thing left for me to do
In my dreams it's me and you, it's there I saw it all come true As time went by faith in you grew, so one thing left to finish you
I believe this is a long post?
8:44 PM
Friday, December 04, 2009
&& i think of u every night~
Chalet. Slept like around 1 hour. The others were like playing spongebob monopoly throughout the night. I did not play at all. Did not want to. Then we kept going to the Cheers store. Like many times.
Stopped outside the haunted place, red house. Qin Xiang's idea to go there i think. There were two lion statues outside. You Liang and i thought they were looking at us when we were still far away from it. But then the lions were not, they were like looking at each other or something. None of us wanted to go in, so we didn't. But from the outside it looks okay. To me. But i think we will freak out if we enter.
Then breakfast. I bought mc gridles with egg. Then i was eating halfway, when my burger dropped, the patty and one of the "buns" fell onto the floor. -,- Then decided to eat anyway, so picked it up and ate. Don't say it is gross. Thanks. Don't want to waste.
Then they spongebob monopoly again. While Qin Xiang and I went up. Qin Xiang slept. I wanted to play guitar, but then decided to sleep cause it was getting boring. So i slept. Beside Qin Xiang.
Woke up and felt so, weird. Like whole body damn weak. 10 minutes later then i felt normal again.
Some girls went wild wild wet, then the guys went home.
The end.
I cried again :/ Damn it.
Push me over the edge. And my character changes.
Some guys are really damn flirtatious i guess. They seem to come from a common group too. And act beng some more.
2:32 PM
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
&& i think of u every night~
Well, i guess everyone is pissed.
I am pissed at my own self.
Need someone to talk to tomorrow.
Holiday in China was wasted. Had no stupid mood.
Liked the dogs there, want to keep them. Very cute. Fed two of them by throwing some type of nuts.
Cried four times in China.
Two was when i was sleeping then i woke up, and realised i cried.
The other two was because of all the thoughts in my head.
Something is wrong with me.
1:34 AM
Monday, November 30, 2009
&& i think of u every night~
Maybe, i will get a tattoo in the future? On the back or on the arm? And, when i move out... Get an attack dog? Loyal and they can protect you. Always by your side. Nice...
Going to China with cousins tomorrow! Bye people! Bad memories of China: Swallowing fish bones and drinking vinegar. (Vomitted a few times too, with dad sticking his finger in my throat) Getting sick throughout the whole trip.
Hope nothing bad happens again.
10:01 PM
Monday, November 23, 2009
&& i think of u every night~
Why the heck do i still feel like this?
Should be happy yet i am still sad at times.
Life is still as crappy.
Emo shit.
8:10 PM
Saturday, November 21, 2009
&& i think of u every night~
Went lan-ing with e1 guys today. Had fun! Infected always win in l4d 2. Gay specials.
Life is still quite empty... At least my friends and spongebob makes me happy.
Spork... Wait till my hair grows...
Bought Avenged Sevenfold's City of Evil today too. OH YEA!
9:34 PM
Thursday, November 19, 2009
&& i think of u every night~
the ROCKER
Dexter Tan
15/11/1994
Guitarist for Subway Massacre
